And it never ends....

I'm starting to be scared
About what's inside of me
Trying not to be taken
By what merely seems
I feel stuck, can't move forward
And as talks go by
I see you don't even bother...
I'm glad you're ok,
I feel fine knowing you're actually happy.
It's just that my mind's always wondering
why couldn't it be me
But there are no worries.
I got used to the thing
shut and lock, then there goes the problem
For a while at least.
And I keep step by step
Living the life I'm supposed to live
Being myself, trying to be free
Wishing you're doing exactly the same
Cause there's no mistake
On throwing it all in the arms of time
I'm no longer in charge....
But I won't fall.